First up, HAPPY 2 years and 4 months to my very special someone on the 30th.
Thank you for picking me up during my downs.
Thank you for teaching me how to love. (Though I am still not an expert yet and have tons to learn about loving, caring and cherishing someone)
Thank you for accepting me for who I am.
Thank you for your optimisium in almost everything.
Thank you for just being you.

I heart you <3

Helped M pack for his overseas trip. HAHA. So sad there aint enuff space to smuggle fatty Carian into the duffle bag.



Seriously, please take me along with you...

Lemon tea and cool blue drink for us(:




Raining heavily outside. Am still in the staffroom despite it passing dismissal time.


OH MANN OH MANN.


Maybe I am so totally not fit to be who I am.


Everything was ok, just that M's trip to Australia is coming soon. Daunting me like haunter. (HAHA, Pokemon character)


My sister! 5 years old. Super skinny, refused to eat. Hyperactive girl ^.^


Weekend was eventful(:
M is able to stay out till Tuesday! ^^


Went for etrial and EMS on Friday before meeting him. Etrial was rather well done I guess. I passed both my attempts, and I realised that some of the things are not even in the book! So I guess its kinda impossible to be a know-it-all for my BTT.OH WELL. I shall just pray and hope for the best.

On Sat, we both ran to Bedok Interchange and were discussing if we should be eating immediately after exercising. M checked websites and it said sth like eating 45min after exercise is good, cos` our body is able to maximize absorption of nutrients, fats and minerals and ladalada. BUT, from the view of a overweight person here, I feel that I shouldnt let my body absorb so much nutrients LEH! Argueargue. And we ate KFC. Slap me.

Woke up at 545am for Sunday to follow M's mum to send him to Padang for his Army Half Marathon. M did well and came in 3rd in his company(: Went home with his mum to sleep till 1020am and she drove me to pick him up. NYNYed.
Dont get it. The pasta I ate was slightly on the hard side(Machiam not cooked fully) then the manager said that they cooked it atlante(Half cooked) then I was telling M about who eats it half cooked, if such hard stuff can be eaten like that then we should be able to eat rice that is half cooked too, which I think would be highly not appetising.
Watched a local production movie with M and it was funny yes, but a lill scary too leh. I mean I dont get it, while others are watching it, I was mostly covering my eyes. There are certain parts that are weird and stupid, but few other parts quite well done. Guess there are still limitations for local productions. Dinner with my family.

Bought M love an inear ear phone and treated him movie with my pay(:
(Thanks for doing so much for me, hope u like the lill things I bought for you<3)
Now you can have more quality and blasting music with ur ipod and in ears(:
Thrifty me gonna take over his microsoft mouse and his ipod nano earphones for my lapptop(:




I had a bad dream last night):



Things to note:
Meet up with Denise and Qingyi soon.
EMS Mon, Wed and Thurs
Chinese on Thurs
Thurs and Fri PSLE Orals
BTT Tues
Thurs TPP (Bernice and Yanqi)
Friday with my <3 Xinmei(:


Busy week. Sorry to Denise, Qingyi alot.


TGIF!

Its been a long and tough week for me here. But its ok, NO PAIN NO GAIN!(:
Currently still counting some of my blessings^^

Parents coldwar for a day, made me super stress. I guess my dad is having menopause.(Dont laugh, guys can suffer from menopause too kays, and some sources even reported that when it strikes for them it is worst then women's).
Sister dont know how to see situation sia, go drop the icecream cone she was licking last night on the floor, dad got so angry and threw the remaining cone out of the door. It crashed against the gate and broke into pieces. After cleaning up my sister's mess he even went to the gate to clean up. I dont know. Moodswings?
I hate it when my parents quarrel. Cos' it not only affects them, they affect everyone in the family.

Was exposed to some slides during TTT yest. Mental health. The cause of children having mental illnesses is mostly when they have dysfuntional families(Divorce, massive quarrels etc) or when they encounter school bullies. My god, what if I am down with mental illnesses): Ok la, they didnt exactly quarrel, they actually have coldwars. So old le still play with snowballs.

I actually witnessed a couple quarrel some weeks ago. The guy would throw and destroy whatever he sees in his sight. Their children? Hiding in their rooms. I realised that there are rather abusive and violent people in my extended family, and that includes me.
Not only will I hurl vulgurities to that person, I would hit them. That occured to my mum and Mervyn so many times back. Thinking about that, really made me guilty. Cos' I tend to hurt someone whom is the closest to me. BUT aint we suppose to cherish and love the person instead? I dont know.

SO chums, if you wanna know if you are my goodfriend, count the number of vulgarities I hurled on you. That would do.

-Erms the above is just for laughs.
(Currently still trying to be a better person^^)


WHEEEE, received a sms from Bernice asking me to check my pac.gov about my pay advice.
I am so grateful that my pay comes in one month earlier. Which also means that I can stop eating myself and be more at ease(:

Thank you God.

M was suppose to go for a two days field camp but! He called me at 5am this morning, reporting to me that his field camp has ended. & I so totally thank God for protecting him, granting him safe and soundness(No such word I know=xx) & I thank God for giving me such a responsible and loving boyfriend, contacting me whenever he can, being with me whenever he can. & forever so understanding (98% understanding according to my loving-ometer^^) Thank you god for making this stupid field camp end earlier then expected(: Although he has to go over to Kranji for the whole day(Cleaning and scrubbing, no contact!): ) I still thank God for making Mervyn's life easiler as compared to him having to have no contact to clean sanitation, food and water. I thank God for M being able to have a good and nice lunch too, since he will be at Kranji camp and not outfield.

Thank you God.

Im blessed to have some goodfriends around me. During my tough times and when I feel so super insecure about them starting school, and may leave me due to their busy schedule. I admit that I was in some sort of depression the past few weeks, which are totally unneccessary. But thank you God for giving me Xinmei, Darl, Jae, Zhengxiang, Fiona, Gretchen and Mervyn. They may not be there for most of the time during my loneliness, but I still thank God that at my verge of giving up and crying, someone dear to me appeared taking the form of a sms or from msn.

& most importantly, for my papa and mummy who are always there for me. Typically these few weeks! Bringing me out for shopping trips, dinnering. & also their little acts of care such as getting me a cone of fattening icecream while getting one for my super aneroxic meimei(15,.4kg at the age of 5), get me some random drink I saw on the magazine. Fruittree Fresh Blueberry and Cranberry. Its through such acts that make me feel that Im loved by them.

Thank you God for giving me some conversation between me and some random coll in school when I was really feeling so down and alone.. Thank you for a next door partner whom is also in charge of choir, thank you for these 2-3 teacher whom always says hi to me(: Thank you for giving me an ok timetable so far:D Although I wanna be more involved in the teaching. But its ok. Thank you for giving me the opportunity that many people (out of the 21000) whom didnt get chosen.


I thank God that financially, emotionally, physically, someone is there to catch me before and during my fall. Though not all the while, but Im still grateful;D



-Off to play boardgames for contact time.


Weekend was wheepeedooduh!Watched UPP! 3D. Was quite emotional during the movie. I teared, and M teared to. AWWWW, he is such an emotional guy <3333>


As August steps nearer, I feel more and more unhappy, depressed and all.




& no you are not seeeing double. Xuehen, M, me and Xuefang.


A series of stuff happened over the last week that made me plunge into series of shocks/depression/self realisation and etc.