If there is only one person to thank, I guess I can only credit it to Mr Peck.


Seriously, I hate changes. Changes to my environment, life, feelings, friendship and so on. Because, changes make me so insecure and sometimes inferior, its like, anytime I can lose all that Ive. All that Ive built and cultivated. Really Ive no confidence of keeping them. Really hope we can still be united as one. Ah clique, you know how much I love you guys?
Heke, Abe, Chunni, Xiumin, Bear, Bry and Merv.


Well, looks like you aint the person whom I can actually turn to if Im sad. Seriously, who can I turn to when Im sad, or when something is troubling me?
Sometimes I feel that my pain is self-inflicted. I know * is like that, then why did I even choose to be close to *, only to get disappointed... AND AND, am suppose to tolerate so many things?

Mum is right, not suitable then change, dont need to tolerate. There are many fishes in the ocean you know?


RUSHED from TJ to Parkway to celebrate Wanyi and Mings birthday! They are finally 18! YAYNESS. Means they can help the clique buy alcohol le huh=/ Went to Swensons to eat and spent erm 109plus? LOL. Bought them vouchers as presents.. Hope they had a great birthday yes?(:
Mings bought alcohol for us and yeah it kinda warmed up my stomach. Shall buy it when I officially reach 18, which is erm, in a few months time.

Cried so much this morning cos I thought I will confirm fail my maths test, but no la, hope to pass. LOL, I aim for pass and nth else=/ But thats not the case for As la but of course. Went to lunched at Katong there with Heke, Angel and apple. YUMS(: Wonderful time with my girls(: The chicken chop is nice, one day I shall bring momo there to try the food(:

DSA people come for Choir prac today. Siansox. Not ready for any chances as yet. But yeah hope to adapt as quickly as possible yeah.

Sorry Chun, you know IM still here for you always k. Thanks Heke for always tolerating my nonsense.. And yeah, YOU. I think you shld stop being selfish, and not demand how things are just to make yourself happy.

My God, Kindeesorx taking H3 Maths((:


YOU wont know how touch Ia m by you today. Thanks for going that extra mile, its this kinda thing(unseen) that make you even more lovable ><> And my woman and apple. IM very happy today with you guys as well. LOVES.
And yeah my buddy Selina is finally coming back to school after her long trip to er.. India. Cool, she brought back many stuff for me, said she.



Seriously I love this phone so much that Im willing to give up my N80. This pic is my background on my com!(:

Haiz yes, I think I manage to fit into 01/07 quite well. As in, slightly above average. Ahh well, cant believe Im placed in a triple science class with smartees and all. But yeah on the average they are nice people, yuppps, among them they are closely knitted and all, something which I envy so much. Cos that doesnt happen in my old class. Most of ex03/07 people are down for Ogl, Selina.. Hmm I doubt she is back from India. The both of them are always spending time tgt, which makes it quite tough for me, but yeah, Carian is a big girl now, I didnt shed a tear at all. Thank God our first week is filled with lectures only, no tutorials, so most of the time I spend my time with Mervyn and Felix, thank God for the 2 guys. Oh well, many teachers and friends must be thinking that Im sucha slut, whole day walking with guys. Oh well, the funniest part was during Chem lecture(M Doesnt take Chem, he kept me company today) and HOHEMS, the 3 of us walked into the LT and sat at the first row with my ex form teacher(Lecturer for Periodic Table) looking at us. Oh well, 01 really changed me alot, I no longer try to hide myself in the crowd to sms or slp, I listen to lectures now and.. Sat at the front row. Cos its 01, and they sit RIGHT IN FRONT.

I seriously wont know how to survive when my other friends return back to class, somehow Ive began to love my life just like it is, without any EX 03 people, I dunno, I just want to have a fresh beginning without anybody knowing me, I wanna start afresh, I wanna lead a new life. I hate seeing my old classmates again(those girls). And its like sometimes I really like a substitute to you 2. When you cant find the other half you call me to ask where am I, when your the other half arrives Im only left behind walking like as though Im your tail. Why am I in sucha state? How come Im able to have such close friends outside class but in class Ive nobody? WHY? Addition to that, its really stressful to be in the best class since IM a DSAer and some hopeless freak that almost got retained. I feel so insecure, I feel that I no longer understand myself anymore. I feel so lonely even though I have a boyfriend. Why? I know you spend alot of time with me, but why do I still feel so horrible?

God please save me. Grant me friendships. Grant me friends like what I had in 15/07 and CHOIR. Grant me smiles laughter and happiness. I dont feel it at all now.