Yupp, will be officially jobless by the end of March. A short break and then its off to work I go again, or maybe just prepare for uni admission. Hopefully. So it will be another 1k for me I hope ><

M and his family will be heading to Taiwan this March. In 2 weeks time maybe? During his block leave. I guess I am ok with going, but I guess my mum is rather worried for my results. EG: What if I do badly and I dont have the mood to enjoy. What if I last minute dont want to go because of my bad results. Just dont get it, how come she keeps thinking I will get bad results. I mean I am stress enough, not confidence enough already, so why does she have to rub it in further. Why cant she understand that there is sucha thing called the LAW OF ATTRACTION. If you keep thinking something will happen it will. So why do we have to keep thinking of the negative side, I mean, we certainly wont want anything bad to fall upon me right. ESP results wise.
Anyhow, I am not sure if I will be going. I mean its his block leave, we have beeen waiting for this leave for 2months plus. Then I will have to seperate from him. I mean anyone will be sad if they know they have to seperate from their boyfriend even during his block leave.

Not to be selfish or what, if he is really going without me, I think I will most likely not sms or contact him and who knows what will happen when he comes back. I am not saying qi hua or whatever sorts here. You may think I am very selfish thinking this way. But come on, if you were me you will probably feel the same.

Talked to Shaoxun abt relationship related stuff. Apparently, according to him, we are on the rocks. That I agree. I feeel quite sick and tired with everything. The need to wait for a person, keeping by the phone, sharing. I have never felt so vulnerable in my life as now.
And nono, nothing happened between me and him. Really. I think its a ME thing. Maybe its just that I aint in a goood mood now, and may wanna retrieve whatever I say in a few hours time.
Somehow I would rather not get into anything. Feeling so sick over everything. The part whereby you have to wait, be 'enthu' about certain issues, get slipshort replies, me having to be the thinker for almost everything, not feeling secure, the thought of being able to be protected by a strong guy, but in the end, for most of the things, I always have to fight for it by myself. Everything by myself. Somehow I dont see a point needing a person to 'share' my life with me. I think I can very much carry on everything by myself.

As I say, I am not in a very sane mood now. So dont take whatever I say too hard. Lest anyone get hurt or whatever.
Random thoughts.


And oh yes, I bought a LG cookie phone yesterday after walking for approx 2km (to and fro) just to get my spolit(on and off) G900 sold, gotten some cash, and got my Cookie at some exclusive Singtel shop. I refuse to trade in/sell my G900 at the Singtel shop cause its only worth $160. I refuse to believe that my phone is worth so little mann. Guess the market value for G series Sony Ericsson aint worth that much. Anyhow I sold it for $205 since I wanna keep my micro sim card. Oh well. Topped up hundred bucks plus more to get my current phone. A black and red side phone. Hmmm.
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Speaking about this LG phone, lol the other time I was talking to work, taking the path through Suntec and I saw this LG cookie advertisement. And I was like WAH. "I wanna get it, but my phone is still new" And tada I got it now. Even the ulu handphone shop uncle was like WAH your phone 4 months old now ah then want to sell(Saw the warranty sticker inside) NO CHOICE LA. I was desperate to change my phone like straight away after work. Because it keeps offing by itself and the screen colour is weird. According to that uncle, there is some software problem for G900, and it keeps hanging. Quite true, without 4 months my G900 mati liao. *Claps* And so I bought this phone with my own hard earn money, and I shall cherish it more.

I feel more and more independent recently. One of the reason is cause, I no longer take a single cent from my parents ever since Jan. AND I use whatever I earn. AND sometimes I spend less then $3 or nothing a day, considering that fact that food is cheap at my workplace, and there are free meal accomodations over at Subway(: Secondly, Im beginning to do many things alone, by myself. Im not sure if this is a heathly sight, but obviously I lack some social interaction and everything=/
And at the age of 19 I learnt many things, faced many things that my peers may not comprehend or go through. The P commented that I was a good RT for an Alevel student. Strong willed. Yupp, indeed I gotta be strong willed as Im faced with trouble makers and rebellous kids. But I also learned that people are not born to be bad or rebellous always. Sometimes its due to their family background, upbringing, thats gives them the kinda character they have now.
Say, if your dad scolds your mum vulgaries everyday, as a guy will you tend to do that to your gf or female friends that? Certainly, cause it has been drilled into the mentality that women are weak they can be insulted and lada lada. If my father can do that why cant I? Its some sort of the ego problem too I guess. So sometimes, its due to habits and upbringing. People management. Hmmm. There is still a long way for me to go I guess.

Anw it will be back to pure sandwich making in March. Good scenes dont always last I guess. Oh wells.
And Im darn afraid of getting results back. Ive a bad feeling. Wonder where will I head to in the end.

M will be back from the jungle today. Hope he is fine. Meeting him tomo!(: But only in the late night due to work.

Hope that Im able to relate better with him more. Afterall, its 'easy' to get into a RS, but tougher to maintain it.


): SAD thing is right, the skinny M will be going for his Situation test at 2-3plus this afternoon, which means I will be separated from him again. Like you know, cant call and talk again. This time round maybe about 3 days, or who knows 2 days - if im lucky enough-.

And please M don’t act smart be number one, be the leader. Don’t go OCS, don’t be an officer, go MDC MDC MDC MDC!:D Where got gf duwanna their bf be officer de > <

And so we have planned for a night out at Harry's this Friday after my work either the normal ones or the gastro bar at Suntec<33 Shouts out to M <<< You better remember to bring all your cards and cash and your entire bank if possible, I am so gonna drink you dry. After which will be stayover(: (:
Haven tried you know, food from bars before, like you seee, fish and chips at bars sounds and tastes better as compare to fish and chips at hawker centres or even restaurants. I dunno, maybe its just cause I haven tried it that’s all. HAHA.

Will be down for some interviews. I mean a. On Wednesday. Anyhow, I got a job at the soup spoon, but the pay is meagre, so maybe not. See first see first.

Parents have given the green light to change my hp, yes yes, I know, AGAIN? But my phone is really ah. Switches off itself, the screen colour becomes rather dark, something is wrong. And I guess my mum understands, cause her phone gives her the same problem too.

The below, is strictly not for any of my family members, conservative people and whatever...

Ya you see, I was reading some blogs of young mothers, and somehow I just wannna have a kid of my own like soon. But yes, the responsibility is great, both parents have to sacrifices a lot of their time, lives. MIGHT be look down upon. Might face future problems eg bad testimonial. Worst thing is, you are spending your parents money to feed the child so on and so forth. But somehow I just want to have a child now!:D But I don’t want to do IT, because I think its gonna be damn painful for the first trial. I mean can I get pregnant in a not so painful way? Ok sorry if I sound dense. But if any of my peers, my age, were to " Siao ah, not pain de la" OR " You sound very childish, * is a normal thing" Then I will begin to doubt your chastity at our this age. Anyhow, I also have this strong feeling of wanting to get married like asap. Ok, this is not being cheap or whatever. But then I was thinking, is there any way I can marry the guy I like at around my this age, say not 19 la, 20, 21 without you know a shotgun. Ok maybe, its probably cause M and I are rather close le, and we are hitting 2 years in 2 months time, ok it may sound short to come people. But ya la. Can I like get married when I hit 21 or sth? AHAHA:D And to add on, I scared I would be doing everything in impulse, like you know make such decisions, I mean afterall at 21, Im just in year2 uni, and that boy is eh waiting for uni? Or maybe ok la, year 1 uni. He and I will be struggling in our studies. Marriage is out of the question. And I dunno if I really accept co-inhabitation, or whether our parents allow. Ok this may sound crazy la. Im confused. And hey, Im not loose or whatever. These are just some thoughts of mine. Yeah.
Some may beg to differ, but I feel that and read that a relationship is usually you know, more active in the first 5 years, and you see, being in a relationship since 17 with that M (HAHA) Means by 22 its our 5th year. HOHEMS. I really do not dare wonder what will happen in 5 years time, I mean afterall, things and lives are always changing everyday. Like Who knows in 3 years time a big bomb bomb up the whole world, HA, don’t even need to worry abt 5 years later.

And oh this Sat is my cousin's tea ceremony. They already had 1 child that is 5 months old. Yup, that is the life I certainly not want to lead. But tell me if there any way I can get married soon, without a shotgun!!!! Mervyneeeee marry me now I don’t care. HAHA.

Ah well, when boredom strikes, I tend to think and ponder a lot:D


HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!<33

I am very happy today not only cause its a happy and sweet day for couples and friends. The thought of giving and sharing between one and another is really wonderful. Right? Most importantly, today marks the end of the day of my beloved's field camp. For those who aint aware of whats a field camp, well, I have to say its considered one of the worst thing a recruit have to face when he is in BMT. 1 week living in the wild, unable to have contact of any sort with the outside world.
To me its kinda bad cause since my M and I used to be very sticky and all. Yes yes, we all know that. HAHA. And not meet for one day is bad enough. Not to mention not contacting for 5 and a half days and not meeting for those days too. Its kinda like a torture. Dont like the feeling. But I have to say that my man has made his family and I very proud of him by being able to survive through so much crap. Sleeping on hard soils, with scorpions, cockroaches, spiders crawling around when he is sleeping. eating combat rations. BEING AWAY FROM HOME. Staying strong and fit. Dont these guys deserve a round of applause from us?(:
I love you babydee(:

Anyhow, the worst part is that Im not sure what time will he be booking out, and if there are any last minutes changes about his booking out day. Apparently he is SUPER DUPER LUCKY LIKE SIAO. Becasue 9 out of 12 of his sections mates got confined. 44 out of 50 people got confined in Scorpion company. DAMN SIAO please. Oh well. M is a lucky dude that packs his stuff properly and all. He is just a lucky boy(: Thank God. Gam Sia Please! This morning, woke up with his mum smsing me about what if M cant come out today and blahblah, we smsed awhile then she called me and then I cried, cause damn it, it was a living hell for me, not getting to know what time and will he get to book out anot. HAIZ. Ate flu medicine and slept all the way till 3plus 4 when I received an sms from him saying that he is booking out soon. HA HA HA!:D
Machiam cheong AH, ask my maids and mummy to help me in prep work. ( I didnt prepare the stuff cause I thought he is not booking out maaa) Cheong cab to his place and yup called mama down to help me carry things. taxi fee so ex): But uncle give me discount. HAHA so nice hor? Maybe is cause I keep chatting with him during the journey! (:
Meanwhile M keep calling me while on the ferry, and sms and sms, but you see, I was so excited and busy that I gotta ignore some of them): Sorry k!! You know I still loveee you!:D And so I made many white lies too, for eg where Im when Im like erm preparing the charcoal fire. HAHA. Where Im when I was ambushing him at his swimming pool and waiting him to go up the glass lift. HAHA. I think the residence there must be thinking Im some hopeless girl in love and proposing and everything with 8 heartshaped balloons. HEEHEE. Heckk. And so he did look down with the aid of mama. HAHA:D Blindfolded him without any cloth(Just ask him to close eyes) And brought him the the bbq pit. HEEHEE. At the pit area was a table of raw food Which included:
Chicken wings marinated with bbq sauce(Thanks to Gf for the recipe~)
Yummy salmon marinated in Teriyaki sauce.
Scallops
Sticks of Enoki muchroom wrapped with bacon
Sticks of asparagas wrapped with bacon(His fave!)
Sausages
Egg with mushroom (Another recipe from clique<33> And yup he gave me a bouquet, my first time receiving a bouquet from him. HA:D And I solo BBQ bbq for 1h before M the prince come down with icebox and some drinks and utensils. Slow horhorhor??

Chio salmon on the grill(: So generous hor the serving!(:

The happy happy couple that got reunited after a week. M dude is tann! Healthy tann!(:

The bbq process(: The asparagas stick is good(:

My skinny M<333



His dinner(: Haha its suppose to be like some ala carte high class dinner, set course that kind, but I failed terribly): HEEHEE. But he happy jiu hao!<33

His menu!(: Some parts is 3D WORXSXSX!(:

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Hotdoggies(: YUmmy cause it has bbq sauce on it(:
And so we called his parents down to eat as well, and they brought along gor +gf plus Gor's friend and date. LOL. SO we had pasta(: salad, potato salad, and me being nice made some salmon and wings for them(: Chatted and had quite a great time.

And so we are having a good time now, and Im craving for Hagan Daz rum and raisin like siao but nah, dunwan him to go down his hill to get it from 7/11 HAHA:D Everyone is asleeep. Shall go watch a movie now too. Hope everyone is a happpy dee just like me and M(: Loves<333


Our romantic "I love You " Candle placed on the table when we dined<33>

M is suffering from bad heat burns and sth heat injuries. So we did not go for clubbing with the girls as he was suppose to avoid alcohol, and yeah he got to spend time with his family too after sucha long weeek.. So sorry ok?): I hope you guys understand my situation. Thanks<33


I mean like seriously, my whole life is really revolving about FOOD FOOD FOOD. No wonder why I am always fat fat fat:D Fat is good, but sometimes bad. Ha.
And so, yes, Im aware that this was awhile ago and yes why the hella am I talking abt it now. HAHA. Well I always have the tendency to recollect memories. Ah wells, dun you think memories are always the sweetest?(:
Mervyn the fatty dee was eating chicken chop for our anni (21 months) while I was eating this! My all time fave. Looks like rats' tails hor??!?!?!?!

I tell you! More chilli and add $1 more mushroom always do the trick!:D And so yes, we celebrated our anni at his house watching American's idol. Laughing and gigging away whenever we see funny people. But sadly, because I got to work the next day therefore I had to go home eariler and stuff. Boo. Wow amazing memory bank I have, its Feb already and Im talking abt last Jan. WOAH HO!
AND SO, I went to do some waiting at NUSS, and Tracy, being sucha babe gave some of us a treat, while others bought apple crumble and rum and raisin ice cream blah blah blah I bought this!

I tabao a Fried Hokkien Mee with Tiger Prawns, no sotong more pork. HAHA. Wait, I dun eat the prawns too, I guess my maid threw it away when I ask her to take it out for my lunch the next day. HA HA HA. So wasted. Tsk. Anw guess whats the cost of this container of noonoo! $12.20. Yes you hear me correctly. WTF. Its damn ex hor? But yeah lucky it was a treat. Most probably there wont be a next time unless Im being treated again. HO HO HO.

And so, before I waited at NUSS, M and me went for soup at souperlicious at suntec. I must say its kinda a duplicate of the soup spoon. BOO. But I guess it pretty ok for a newly copy cat established soup shop.


It looks not bad! Go try I say! HAHA:D
Quite awhile ago I was at Chinatown with momma to get some CNY stuff, and HAHA. I was tempted to eat at the market hawkercentre there. Cos there are many delicacies there, like really. MANY. AND SO we order Rou Ku Cha and some famous fish soup and I gobbled up two bowls of rice. (Eeps, G will scream if she sees the word 2. HAHA)

MY GOD, dun mind eating them everyday!!!
And so many many days later, which is few days before Wl and I met up for banmian at Hougang mall. I must say that the standard kinda drop liaos. It has lost its xfactor): ANW I had a great time with Wanling that day!!:D Queuing with her for Toto for her mum was so funny. Its like HAHA. I dunno how to explain. Anw while queuing up M's mum called, ok she is known as mama to me, my mum is mama to M. I mean you guys get the point. Then we started talking and she asked me when is M booking out and all, but its like I dunno too. HAHA. And lol mama was DAMN random I tell you. She was like talking abt rs stuff with me, I mean she understands my situation too cos uncle and her were tgt since sec sch that kinda thing... She suggested that M and I get settle down during uni or after uni before getting a job. I was like HUH? What is settle down. Then she was like, get married. LOL. SHE IS FUNNNNNNY. Ok back to my foodie spreee.
And ok, that day I went to Pasta Fresca with Merv's dad and mum and grandma. AND OMG. His grandma drink iced 7up pls. GOSH GOSH GOSH. And oh, finally Ive found somewhere with grilled salmon comparable to Indulgz! Thats what M said tooo:D

YUMMY YUMMY SALMON I TELL YOU!!:D

Pharma ham! Its like smoked ham wrap around a bread stick. Looks kinda like a dog bone. I WAS LAUGHED AT FOR MAKING SUCH A SILLY COMMMENT):
Anyway chatted with his dad and mum and talk and talk and complain complain so much abt work. Then his dad proposed for a holiday trip tgt after Merv's POP and stufff. I was like shaking my head. I mean its cool but no la hor? Then he said something like, you guys can do anything so long as you dont give us any surprised grandson or granddaughter. I was like HUH!? He repeated himself. Then his mum was like ya, must learn how to take precaution. LOL DAMN FUNNNNNNNNY. I was like, Huh? SEX AH? NO LA, we never do such things de. His dad was tune down his voice softer and carried on with sth else, I forgot what. But something like reemphasizing abt the dunwan grandchildren part. And so we had sex education/ family planning talk for the next 45min, which according to uncle isnt sexx education. OMG M's family so funnnnnnnny:D Love em.

And oh yes the next morning(Sunday), the both of us went for Delifrance buffet!! HAHA:D I must say that teh scamble eggs are pretty nice, followed by the ham and sausages and pastries:D I wanna go there again this Sun!:D Shall go check out the participating outlets:D And crap I didnt bring out my handphone that morning so I cant take pics of my foooodeee): But it was enjoyable !(: NO handphone =no distraction between the baybaybeeees(:
And oh before Sunday, say on Fri, we went for HEEHEE. Chilli BBQ stingray, chicken chop and famour pork porridge at blk 84( a place just like chomp chomp! )And yes, food again!(:

YAY FOOD IS LOVE. Wanted to get satays, chicken wings and the legendary mince pork noodle there too. But scared fat so bought lesser. Not forgetting Mr Sweetsweet sugarcane!(:

HAHA meet my new boyfriend!:D Mr Tan! HAHA Tan for tan not tan. HAHA. Mervyn is damn DARK. I think he is still going to be even darker. AND HOHO. HE got 4 pecs PLS. Though I have a feeling he will, no la no la where got? When he read my this post:D YOU HAVE LA. Sexy recruit la u! HAHAHA.

And oh, Recruit M is somewhere in the forest camping with dangerious creatures like snakes ans scopions now. HAHA. Denied of fresh water to bathe. LOL! SMELLLLLLLLY MERVYN.
Seeeeee you soon baybaybee with my Vday surprise for you;D and clubbing with my girlfriends yeah? On Vday<33

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