Oh well, as usual, my results suck; BIG TIME. I dunno what happen to me again, I studied so hard for my geog, and end up? That kinda results is what I get. Maybe I aint studying hard la, I dunno. 3 subs add up 8 pts, where the fuck can I go? Monday getting back more results, I really dunwanna break down. Its like everyone else is doing so much better. Like fuck. I just hope I get below 20! So that I can go into TJ or rather a JC with results that fits the minimum JC requirement. I dunwanna be looked down by others, going in with a 25 or 28. I want a 20 and below and Im happy. I dunno why, but IM quite positive that improvements are all that I ever wanted for prelims. Ok lets be honest, my Midyears I got 28 (shoot me pls) then my term 3 miracles happen and I got 16. For prelims, by right, I should be getting 16 and below right? But I not so wannabe, give me 20 and below can le. So that means I need another 8 points to fufill my dreams la. Very difficult pls. FOR etc, I have to get 2 more maths, 2 for chem and 4 for combine. Difficult pls. Or rather what I really wish for is 3 for Chem 3 for maths and 4 for Combine. Thats enough like halleluyah? I will be so happy, and yes partner and GF, If i get below 20 Im giving you guys a treat, cos this is the first time I do 'well' for a full paper kinda thingy. Imagine what a failure Im ok! Fuck.

Mids I got B3 or B4 for my maths, considering the fact that its a kinda ok paper for paper1 compared to Mids and i got a 70, I hope my paper 1 can pull me up or vice versa, just give me a fucking B3 la. Then for Chem, I really devoted all my time to study it and gave up amaths, so pls give me a B3 too la. I think its impossible. The only reason why Im using combines is not cos Im good at it, or rather, this is the only sub I can use o count. I cant use amaths, I cant use physics, they are the gonner papers. So pls give me a b4 or c5 I dun mind, as long as I get below 20. And Carian you pig stupid idiot, just forget about your bloody study leave la, you are destined to stay in PL somemore because God loves you and you are stupid and dumb. U should be electrocuted so that your brain can function properly and that your neuro waves can send correct cells into your pig brain. Apparently, the cells are reaching your ass then your pig brain. You are just so totally useless and dumb, you do not deserve to be on this earth you sucker.

And you bloody sucker, getting an A1 is very good already, stop whining you asshole. You drop from an A1 to an A1 still kaopei, stop it la. People ard you are feeling bad enough ok. Fuck off`


I think its kinda silly. OK maybe not. But I kinda think that its quite serious somehow. I really dunno how to settle, I dunno how. I hope things can get better. 4-5 months isnt just 4-5 months, they are the number of seconds we bond, the number of seconds we have memory, and Im not letting this go so soon. There is much to prosper. Im holding on to this, I will be praying about this. We are not gonna just be liddat.

Im jealous of you la gong! Im not so lucky like you.


Im so sad, Im very very sad. I think I really wrote out of point for my HMT compo. Its like tis totally wrong or sth, but then after I search the net and talk to my dad, its not totally wrong. Well, I really dunno, I just hope I didnt like do too badly, as in just give me slightly above pass for my efforts can? Then pls, let me pass my overall for compo and I promise I will work very hard for my paper2, and pull all my marks up! God! Help me. Though I know Im damn fuccking hopeless la, Im an idiot that is always writing outta point for compos, but pls, grant me mercy, show me miracles and make things appear nicer then I expect. Got that bloody hell paper, only those that score below 14 gets to have study leave eariler, you think got my share? OF COS NOT LA. I get 20 on the spot already bang wall sing prayers chant sutras. Fast for 10 days to thank God le. Mummy is right, TJ is really blind to accept me. Im too lousy. I gather that even if Im the worst student in Tj, Im still with those who got below 10 for Os. LOL.

Rubberband snap when I came out of the toilet, and I have to walk home with my hair down, thats my weak point ok, my hair is the ugilest asset of mine. HOHUMS.

Should I go for the class gathering? HMM. Nobody to go with, it will be better if gong, qings and baobao goes. Darl and parts.
Suddenly I feel that my social circle is very small, my life only revolves ard the people I mention. Not forgetting Gor and her la. Well, Im satisfied le.

Hey girl, you know who you are: Im happy that we talked online today, you know abt the clique thing? Actually I was talking about myself too. I hope we are one, and it turns out that you also regard us as one! Im happy la. HEE. Just hope everything turns out well, and everybody bonds.

Bestie just arrived at my house, shall go entertain her. HAH.


Well, I know its kinda late to talk abt my papers and results, hence, I shall not talk about it. Im sick of it, and Im very sure I will do badly.

Dont force me to do things I dont like and want. It will only cause me to retaliate, and turn grouchy.

Tomo is the last day of all the nightmare. HAIZ, guess I will be alone, I wanna go out but there is no one to head out with. Seems like everybody is really getting serious this time, all chionging for Os, and Im the childish one lo. Hmm, kind soul reading this, pls ask me out for a date, Im feeling bored.

Playing the nick game with Liangs now.

non mihi solum. liangliangx i miisshh euu 2 worssx, i wan 2 c euu tomorrox. come early to schx worxx, says: and
LiangYu ahliancraze- i lubb euu wors! CaRiAncAriAncarianCARIANcarianCARIANcarian! <3> Tomo go school must go high5 with her, LALALA.

Hmm, shall go study now since liangs wanna go off too. Nobody is online. I saw you. HAHA.


Hey, just wanna tell YOU, that I care for you, alot. And I know sth is happening to you, I hope our friendship is good and strong enough, and that you will soon tell me whats happening to you. Not seeing you today itself makes me suspect that sth is wrong. HAIZ. Im worried, so worried for you my friend.

My mum complains that im studying too slowly. What to do one chapter of geog takes me 1 day le. I dunno whats happening to me, I swear I did study hard ok, but nothing goes into my mind. All the best to me and my fellow friends, and family(: Love.

I dunwanna just be you joking or playplay friend, I wanna be your true friend, but somehow the latter just will not come true and I know it.



Yupps, I cutted my hair at Jean Yip @ Bugis. Crap, I shld have gone to Monsoon. I dunno la. I should have gone to Reds which is situated next door, I believe its much better. I think JY is damn lan la, then how come they still charge so EX, my mum thinks my hair is nice, so she decided to cut hers too. HAHA. Here goes my hair

Slanted fringe with a gradient of 30 degrees, sides like Cleopatra (The egyptian queen) BWHWHAS, length is untouched, but the back was slightly thinner and now its so thin at the end):
I think my hair is really a gonecase, considering the fact that Ms Carian doesnt know how to blow dry her hair so her hair will blob out. Yucks. On the way home, smsing, she told me she is in the hospital, and this really started(SCARE) me ok! I was damn worried and I kept asking her what happen, in the end she told me that she go there to visit her Granny, WHALAO, scare me like nobody's business la. I tell you, my face totally changed when I heard her say that ok.

Then I descibed my hair to her, haha, She thought I go copy a junior hair called Cleopatra in school. PLS AR. Its egpytian queen? Like hello(: Then we talked abt popular bungs in our school, like as though she even know them la, HAHA. Then she ask me who caught my fancy recently. LIKE HELLO? So purposely, but how do I put across that I still like her as much. I didnt wanna be so loose nor open, so I just type this DONT ASK THE OBVIOUS FIONA TEO. Then she replied huh, then I nothing her, then she said she couldnt understand the "Dont ask the obvious" part. HAIZ. I have nothing to say. Totally nth to say. But hey, whether anot you know what is happening, you dun have to know that I like you, its better this way, we can be become friends that way, rather then in the past I hide from you, we see each other we dont talk, end up sms each other when we are like 2m away. Well.

1 more week to prelims, I must do well this time, and I cant let you distract me, you have an A1 at your hands already, I dont. you appear to be slacking actually you already completed ur studies, this I know. So, I wont spend my time thinking of you, sorry to say this, I will try to block you off my memory for at least this week and the next, or even better after the Os, who knows I have already forgotten what I feel for you. Pls pray hard that I wont like you anymore.

Gor, thanks for being there for me always, and on Teacher's Day, Thanks(: Love.