♥♥♥
You are mine.
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Friday, July 31, 2009

):):):):):):):):):

I feel kinda sad now.
My future is ruined.
Thats it.
HOW.


What should I do, and where should I go.
Somebody please help me!!!

Why did things turn out this way. I should have not been greedy. & accept fate.
Accept that fact. & not try ways to be out of it.
Cos eventually, fate will control your life and you will be back to square one.


I should have learnt from 3 years ago. & just accept who I was, and where I should be.




I have made another mistake. Again.






Editted at 8.35pm

Post is too sad. Yucks. Ok lets talk about something more fun!!

Yupps, I finallly going to go apply for a BTT date Whahaas.
Really hope I can clear it by early August, start contacting one of my mum's client who is a private instructor and start taking my FTT after my first few lessons. If everything goes well, I really hope that I can get to drive like say before my birthday(:

& thanks darl for agreeing to go down with me. BUT, we kinda of didnt plan much into it yesterday. So I shall wake you up at 1230 1pm to wake you up(:


& Oh Happy 2 Years 3 Months to you Mervyn.
(This is for yesterday)



& yupppps hope you can book out in time for Tag's competition.


Life and reality is so cruel.
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Thursday, July 30, 2009

TPP ended on quite an okay note. Mrs Sng went through quite an amount of tips and how-to-deal-with-naughty,distracting-kids. Although most of the time I was chatting and discussing with Bernice, Yanqi and Anna nonstop^^

Few of them commented on the last day of our course that I appeared dao and very serious and was quite afraid of talking to me initially. Partly because of the lill speech I made when we were asked to introduce ourselves. Soon after, many others started to quote me including Mrs Sng. It was sth about having good and bad teachers. & true enough many others agree with me, esp JC students. Oh well.

BUT IM FRIENDLY!!!!
-And alright since I have to deal with people often, I shall consistently put on a wide smile(:


My timetable for 2 weeks are rather good and spaced out. Hope I can get an even better timetable after National Day(: && oh Im down for Preliminary Orals for the P6es for 2 days. Met my cousin at the hall yesterday after having a word with the Principal. &&&& OOOO, I wish and hope that I get to be a co in charge of Choir.


Im rather upset that the staff here are not really warm and friendly, and usually Im left all alone with my lapp in the staffroom. Cleaned down my table today. It was a big spacious table and Im thankful for it. Everyone seems so busy. Walking in and out of the staffroom carrying books/worksheets/charts along with them. Really hope I get to teach soon.




<3 carian




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Sunday, July 26, 2009

Weekend was ok great(:

& SUNDAY'S lor mee plus pancakes brunchee was bliss. Did not head over to M's grandpa place. But instead to Cityhall to drink Mos' milk tea plus tons of PSP rockband.

& oh great Mac serves shakerfries!
Still remember M and his Bro Justin stocking up tons of packets of seaweed powder from Hongkong. It was only 1HK which means 20cents per pack!:D
&&&&&& those powder are being stocked up in their house's container neatly. Nobody has been using it-.- The number of packets add up to about 50+. LOLNESS.


AND its been awhile I haven been to macs for a meal. Like you know, fillet o fish and sorts.
Still remember the days I used to have macs/fastfood almost 3-4days a week. And yes gaining up to 3-4kg-.- Those were the days, cheong days for the As after school hours.


Bought a bag. Its pretty. Thanks M(:
Swensons with M, my treat. HAWHAW. Teriyaki pasta and 49ers sourdough(:


Is it the cherry season now? Mum keeps getting cherries for us. There, I can give G somemore of my stalks to tie=xx


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Saturday, July 25, 2009

Went for several rounds of slow jogg around M's house while waiting for his return from school. Yeppp, he went for TAG (Acapella group) to visit and see the improvements of his juniors.

I seriously dont get it.
Why do you have to go back to TMS right after you book out. Even after your 10k run, your entire heart and soul is still thinking about TAG. This morning, you woke up so early just to see them again.

Im not unhappy/jealous/whatever about this matter. Just that, I realised that I have gone back to your school far more then I have returned back to my pri/sec/jc/young time art class/last time swimming class ladalada.



Previous matter have allowed me to witness some nice things about my old/new friend(s).


Im a little excited/anxious about Wednesday.
Briefing/talks for Monday and Tuesday.
Outing(Dinner) with Darl and Jayne.
DARL~ Dont forget our date about ... (: Lets meet up again maybe next week or so yes?(: Lets both make the effort together! & Babeh can come if she wants ^^ & G, you kinda MIA. OR, I MIA? HAHA. Next week too ^^

M smsed to ask if Im making breakfast for him. HAHA
PUT RAT POISION INTO HIS PANCAKES!:DD


Went to Foo's restaurant with M's family to dine after fetching his brother from Seletar Camp who had some COC thing. & oh my, its the first time I tried roasted duck prepared in a fusion/western way. (Sorry la, I mountain turtle). & their pumpkin soup is heavenly;D

NOT FORGETTING all of us kept on ordering for extra brown sauce /mustard/special chilli sauce. HAHA, even Justin (M's bro) commented that we order more sauce compared to the no. of main course we ordered. HAHA. So funnny.

& BOO! I did not manage to eat my HD's Green Tea icecream last night ):





Things to note:
More formal clothes
Eat lesser!
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Thursday, July 23, 2009

To: I dont know who.

Please stop using my name to blog nonsense on my friends' tagboards.
If you hate me just pinpoint me, you dont have to do this.

Number 1: Its very childish.
Number2: Its still very childish.
Number3: Its still super childish.

Maybe you should just concentrate in your studies/ work if you have so much time to come read my blog and try all means to affect me or make me sad. Because after awhile what you are doing will have NO effect. If you have any problem please do go see a councillor. Or talk to your parents about it. They may probably tell you to stop doing it. Or take away your internet connection.

& my friends who got spammed by my name on your tagboards. Its obviously not me.
Thanks(:
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Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Tuition with Jarett was quite good yesterday, and I must say that primary school kids are really so much stress compared to the older generations(US) nowadays. He has me as his EMS tutor as well as another chinese tutor. Seriously! He has tuition for all subjects. Now now, I dont remember myself having so much tuition except for maths when it hit a low band 2 of 75. So lets see, He has tuition almost everyday.

POOR KIDS.

Met up with my primary school friend Qiuyu yesterday at AMKhub. Ate BBQ express chicken steak rice. It was super la. Hawaiian chicken steak with pineapple rice<3
Caught up quite abit, & she brought me to Jarett's house. Looks like everybody has grown up! Its been 7 years since I last met her.

Life is rather slow pacing recently.
I didnt go out with anyone.
I havent spoken to anyone except M on the phone.
I FELT DETACHED TO THE WORLD.

& Mongs havent been replying my smses. Maybe her Iphone died again.

On the other hand, I would be steaming and treatment-ing my hair at Chapter 2 tomorrow, while Xinmei will be cutting her hair(:
IM BOREDDD!):


I will be starting my teaching journey next week. God bless me.
Grant me unlimited patience, ability to get along well with young kids and my colleagues. Grant me the never ending perseverance, energy and faith in whatever I do.


Had a long talk with the very nice o wise Mr Tan (Principal of the school I RTed) Felt very inspired by him, his advices and guidance. & also thank you for having so much faith in me about the route I am going to take.

THANK YOU(:



Mani and pedi this Friday most probably with M's mum. I need to remove the dead skin and all which has been accumulated for ages=xx

M's battlion run at East Coast this Friday too: Earlier bookout and going for TAG practices.

<33
Trying out my lapptop's webcam. FAT ARMS! But dont care. HOHOS.
M is so thin!!

Sat dinner at Amara Hotel's Elements. Its been a long time since M and I went on a date. Yeah, for 2 months or so its always dining and outing with his family and all<33

Our fave codfish
Hopefully, spicy kimchi hotpot.




OMG TL's dad bought him a car!

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Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Was looking through my old photo files. & I realised that time waits for no man.
Look, we have all grown up.
(In no particular order)
Look! Its Huijuan and I eating from the same speg. Those were the days. We are no longer contacting. & we used to be besties.

Nanxiao & I. We used to be close cause we were from the same OG in TJ in the first 3 months. This was taken during our 2nd Orientation Outing.
Mervyn and I, on the way to the airport. I had weird thin hair then.

Jollyn also known as meimei to me in Choir cos she is small(: HAHA. We grew our hair tgt(:

Mervyn at Bedok Interchange. Those were the days mann. He is so boney!


Esther Neo and I. Sadness. We used to be damn close.


Lol, letters from my 'fanclub' back in Secondary school. My gawd.


Choir clique and I called this the 'wedding photo'. Was wearing my choir gown plus Bry's blazer. HAHA. Slacking time before performing for college day!


Selina and I! My close budd when I was in TJ. She is real smart. Although she is super slack, she always performs well academically. My lunch buddy too!


My beloved darl and I. She was with me when I cut my hair damn short again=D


Liangyu! HAHA. Another close sis of mine in the past(:


Selina and I at Kuantan for Geography Fieldtrip during our times in TJ (J2)

We were doing calulations for the speed of river flow.


My beloved choir clique. & We dont really meet up anymore. HAIZ.

<33> HAHA! Motherly photo at East Coast Beach. (My family's fave hangout)


Yes. Tall vesus short. Shoooot me!


Those were the days. Everyone's hair was short. HAHA. And everyone looked skinnier(: (Wanyi is stilll damn skinny la. Followed by crow and darl. Im the fattest now!)



Felix! My deardear friend. Ever so nice and understanding. My bitching buddy about *, the school and the f***ked up system.


HEEHEEHEE <3> Kinda the limelight for our concert in 2007(:
Those times were one of the best. M and I aint tgt yet. But we were superrrr close. & everyone in choir suspected that we were together and so on. & how hard we tried to fight rumours. HAHA!

But in the end we got together like a few days before this concert. & I was glad because during concerts and competitions, choir clique is always close and all. We are always tgt. *Inserts big hearts please!*



O-M-G, these were the young and innocent days.

& I no longer talk to Jayne anymore):

But darl and I are still close and very sticky. HAHAHA:D


Chunnie pok, Heke and Me! Whalao love this 2 tons and manymany. Chunnie will be going to UK for 4 years. HAIZ. Heke taking dentistry. All the best you guys!:D


My dearest Xinjun! I used to crush him can! HAHA:D

So funnyfunny days.

Cute thing is, I always end up being goodfriends with those guys I crush.

Its a happy thing I guess ^^

Xinjun is heading to Dentistry too(: Jiayou!

& may be posted to Armour, so M and him get to see each other!

Guess whose shoes were these?
Suppose to study end up zilian. How to get good grades??? (But M did well in the end, unlike me...) M got into Accountancy and computing science.


Clique. MY GOD. This was taken so long ago on Sokfan's birthday.

Geee, am happy that we are still meeting up and all till to date! HAHA:D Met just last Sunday:D


I used to have a thing for Zhonghua uniforms. HAHA.


Apple and orange. My two other friends in classs.

Lost contact. Sad case ):


The sopranos!


Cheerleading with darl and Yuenmei(Leader)

Wonder where we found the balls to mix around with her and her friend, as well as other roudy girls=xx


Hey, you no longer practise beatboxing and flourishing as often already...


G Dearie, I cant any pics of you la whalao!!
Sorry if any of your unglam or ugly photos are here.
Memories...
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Monday, July 13, 2009


HAPPPPPY EARLY 19th BIRTHDAY AILING!
Clique bought her a macbook laptop case/bag. Its hard and has a handle. So its a bag right. OH NO OH NO): 

Her mango birthday cake!



Ailing with Eeyore and Elmo! That amusing waiter told us that his friend would be joining us for lunch because he prepared a 8 person's table, however there was only 7 of us. HAHA. Mings, darl and I were like stun. LIKE, WTH must we sit with his friend.

He went like, dont be so stun you will get it when you get there.
HAHAHA. And we saw Elmo sitting there:D 

CUTE.


Its my dear Ailing's early birthday celebration.
Gee, she doesnt really take pictures. 
IM HONOURED:D

Shadows of the darls. *Acting mysterious*


Listening to lao da and her wise suggestions about NYDC's food.
(Which aint very accurate. TEEHEE~~)

Sneakshot! My hair looks unstraight.
Part of cliqueclique love.

More of cliqueclique love(:


Hope to see you guys soon! Hopefully before the JC people starts their first sem in university:D

LOL Wanyi is damn cute.

C: Eh I realised I keep telling you guys Im going to start school soon!
WY: Ya, during your birthday celebration(April 22, it was a post celeb:D) you also said that.

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Never mind if you dont get it.
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Sunday, July 12, 2009

MY VIRGIN POST WITH MR/MS LAPTOPEE.

I am still considering if it should be a male or female, although by default any female and non living object, like a table or chair should have a default 'female' gender. WHAHAHAHAS:D

Weekend was quite a goood one(:
First off, let me talk about my virgin journey to Mac Ritchie.
Kuku me woke up at 8.45am despite chatting with Darl till 3am. Took 132 and began my journey with a journey guide on my hand printed from the SBS website. AH yes, smart me got down at the correct stop (Mt Alvernia stop) and OH MY GOD. I dont know where is Mac R !! I find out how to get there with which bus, at which stop but I dont know where is the location. EG Left handside of this building or right hand side of that river. YOU KNOW YOU KNOW? Damn kuku. Called my dad and OOOO(:

& yes Mac R is situated directly opposite Mt A.
I walked towards the reservoir & happily decided to go track the trails of the tankees. I walked some 100m away and realised that I would be entering some forest/jungle if I proceeded. Somehow my common sense told me that they would gather at somewhere near busstops/somewhere accessible and not in the middle of a jungle=xx

I scanned across the resevoir and waalaa, I spotted 1 or 2 humans clothed with white tops and black bottoms running(Armour PT KIT) and decided to walk all the way to the other side of the reservoir to check it out. To my surprise I saw a carpark(Entrance no 2 to Mac R). I spotted 2 tankees (From their attire) walking to a car and assumed that their meeting point is somewhere near it. Nevertheless it was true! I stood under the sun for 1 hour before M the tankee was released. (I was the only girl there can!!) Homed, Lunched(:

M was damn funny. A bunch of his bunkees decided to get a psp since they were permitted to do so as they have passed out from their trades course. He told his friend to get him one as well. (Buying in bulks-> Cheaper!!) After M got his psp from his friend that very day, he then called his mum and asked her if he could get it. (lol) At first his mum was reluctant (WORRIED US, MEANS CANT CLAIM BACK $$) HAHA.

CUTE. My sister calls M's DS as chicken rice (Cooking mama game) and now M and I calls his PSP as duck rice. LOLLLLL.


& oh I so totally recommend Ice Age 2 3D!!(:
Its nice, and funnyfunny:D


Celebrate Ailing's Birthday today at Bugis' NYDC.
The food was good la. Slap those people that spread bad rumours about it. But my baked pasta was a lill too spicy. But the baked rices are goood(:
Happy us ended our meal with a mango cake from 4Leaves(:
I LOVE CLIQUE!(:


Yay, M's booking in time would be 2230 from today onwards(:

BUT.
His parents gotta watch xingguangbang then they cant fetch him today): Sadded. Left his place at 2045 and he wanted to send me home then go back to Gedong. But the cabbie dont wanna send him there cause he needs to go somewhere else plus I know its too far la. Anyhow M cab to somewhere near my place (KPE there) and dropped off. Anyway, my point is, I am so glad he manage to reach camp early=xx


Thats for now folks, will update again(:
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Friday, July 10, 2009

Bus to take to Mac Ritchie Reservior for me.

132.
Estimated 28/29 stops.
Estimated time 1h or hopefully lesser.

Yes, Im going to stalk 48 SAR guys tomorrow at Mac ritchie during their 10km run.

Was chatting alot with my dear darl <33
(Em so glad to) while researching for my routes. OOO.
Thank god for Uncle Ben and Zhengxiang for their help(:


I was telling few of my friends that I havent switch on my new laptop yet, cause I only wanna do that after I get my router and my new casing. (My laptop doesnt have a casing yet, and its still lying in its box.) So if I really were to use it, I wont know where to keep it again. Nono, not back into the box again! HAHA.
& lol. I kinda wanna switch on tgt with M by my side. HAHA^.^


I shld slp I shlp sleeeeeep.
But Im not sleeeeepy yet.


Clique outing postponed to Sunday afternoon. So I guessss I may have my mini bbq with M at his service balcony tomo night? Hmmm=/

Asparagas & Enoki wrapped with bacon(:
Hotdogs drenched with honey <3
Satays ^^
Perhaps, get some tips from darl to make gin cocktails. Whooo~
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Thursday, July 09, 2009

Whoooooooooots.
Naughty, horrible me ponned Psy 101 Test today.
But it doesnt matter since 4 out of 5 will be chosen for the final grade. & this is the fifth^.^


My dear Qingyi is sick. & I hope she gets well sooon(:
Most probably heading down to school on Monday to meet Rose, Qy, Bear & D.
(I have not seen them for 5 days plus this weekend)


I guess I will be running alot between both campuses for awhile to see my friends and my 2 special ones(: Megabites someday alright?(:




Will be meeting Kenny gor for Nikon Mura tonight after not seeing him for say 6 months.
Shall look around for a decent router and laptop casing tonight too (:




Say, M is going to book out tomo at 10plus am after his battlaion run at Macritchie. Should I go appear there or so. (I hope I dont catch him passionately making out with other tankees! HAHA) Possibly lunching out at Iluma, or should I meet him at his place for his bath. You see, I cant possibly hang out with a sweaty tankee (Holds nose) & According to Sean (Former Armour Platoon Sergeant WOAH!!), there may be a promotion next month or so. So totally hope M will be promoted. BUT the increment in pay is only 30$. HMMMM.


I thought I lost my letter of appointment yest. Immediately called M's mum to help me check if its in M's room. Alright, she found it! (Careless me) And then I went , EH aunty that one is profession secret leh, you dont go see ok! HAHA! & she smsed my something back so cute. LOL.

&&&&&&&
I have the best auto mobile and reliable mum in the whole wide world.

I became crazy while waiting for my results for my health checkup. Those who were with me thru all these almost used a chopper to chop my head cos I was really too luosuo and whiney. I couldnt wait as I have to quit my current programme you see. & so I called Raffles Hospital for 1 week but they just dont want to pick up the god damn phone. Finally they picked up but they couldnt enclose anything to me! I got to call MOE for the results. I called MOE and they could only help send an email to the department to get my results. My mum (HAIZ) threaten me can. She was like "Up to you la, you dont want to go down to the hospital to get the result then up to you!" I felt so scared by her can. So I went down to Bugis to enquire for my results. In the end they couldnt give me any details cause they are not allowed to.

SERIOUSLY, THE PATIENTS SHOULD HAVE THE RIGHTS TO GET THEIR MEDICAL REPORTS RIGHT. LIKE HOW YOU KNOW IF YOU ARE HEALTHY ANOT!!!


Anyhow my mum over the phone KAOBEI the RH people and in the end they called me to inform me that Im medically fit. BUT at that time I was at J CO sipping tea with Mongs. I couldnt hear them properly. WHALAO. And I started doubting what the people said over the phone. (Im so irritating, yes!) Went home and get scolded by mum somemore. WHALAO. She was like, if you really hear wrongly then too bad, all I can do, Ihave already done it already, if you are going to spoil your own chances then too bad.
But nevertheless I received the email from MOE the next morning telling me I have cleared my medicals. OKAYS. PHEWS.

Okay, I shall go do my civil servant card this Monday or so.

My mum is firm/strict/fierce HAHA. But she help me solve tons of problems. I cannot live without her. WHAHAS:D



Roselind smsed me and informed me of my results for my super ZOMG difficult Microeconomies exam held last month.

Godsent result(:



I have many people to thank. Really. Although there are many things that I dont have. Yearn to have but no matter what I do also wont attain. But like what Qingyi said, I shld be thankful for everything. God bless all the good people on earth(:




Outing with Mongs 2 days ago. I wore my old JC uniform to look school-like. HOHO(:


Nice nice volcano ramen for me! & I kinda got sick of it. We always have ajisen ramen for our dinner=x CARBO! & yes, Im still the heavy chilli eater Carian. Not much changes <3
Mongs. HAHA. Dont see she small small. Her appetite is godlike. HAHA(:



The JC dudes. HAHA. All the best for your Midyears woman!(:

I am glad that although we were in different schools for awhile, we still manage to remain close(: HUG YOU MONGSIES.

Thank you Qingyi for unscrewing my blogggggy <3

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Monday, July 06, 2009

I have a dilemma.
Something which most people cant help.


I have a problem, its called time management problem.
Nono, I can complete all tasks on time.
BUT I dont really know how to plan my time well so that all my important people gets to enter my 24hours.

The saddest thing is that, few of you understand.


I have been trying my best. But have you guys tried to understand me?
& I cant stand all those attitudes.
I just feel like not bothering about it anymore.







M's POP was great.
Aside from parking in the wrong carpark slot. Walking quite abit. Everything was great.


M's mum and I went there say 45min earlier to chop a place.
Chatted, shared green tea and almond biscuits.

Finally we get to witness our smart boy marching out from far (We know they are all hiding behind the fences say some 300m away). With his smartest coveralls and black beret with a rifle in his arms.

Oooo, he wore contacts for the parade too ^.^

Laughed at him while they sang a chinese patriotic song.
WO SHI NIAN QING DE WEI GUO JUN. ( M is a potato eater)

Some quick photo taking and badge presentation on his LPV.

After which we went for the viewing of the interior of his tank as well as refreshments.
Apparently, those refreshments are the army guys' dinner. LOL.

As usual, we get to see M beatboxing on the screen during some talent showcase <33



Dined at Matthattan's Fish Market with M and his mum.
Had grilled salmon and it wasnt nice.
Shrimp bisque and salad.


Sakae buffet at 3pm on Saturday.
Went to get a new phone with his phone.
LOL. She needs a phone with huge number display, good camera.
& she got herself a SE C902. or is it C907.
8.1 mp. ( I heard about some probs with that phone, but no choice.)




Went to the arcade and caught some toys and sweets ^.^











I dont know. I just dont feel happpy. Am I reallly just too problematic.
U know, I really hope that I myself can just let go of it abit. So that everybody can be happy.
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Thursday, July 02, 2009

Blogging at the school's lounge with Thomas netbook. Tooks pics that kinda look like quan jia fu.

WHAHAHAS.
But I cant seem to upload the photo ):


M's POP today. So Im gonnna slack here till 3plus then Denise will give me a ride down to find M's mum. So lucky right me. & Denise la, parents go Bangkok then she get to drive their car around.



Homework for the weekend:
Essay outline
Journal 3.



HUHHHHH):
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