Screwed up many many many papers. Maths and GP still got hope of passing. Maginal pass will do. I dun ask for much. Really. TJ papers are tough. I finally understand how those smart asses schools are functioning. Nono, dont get me wrong. Im a D** freak. So naturally Im flunking everything, and shouldnt be complaining.

Last day of exams for many people today. No no, not for me. Its not the end for those who learn about the line of weaknesses on rocks. Yeah. Geography. 8-1030. Then its double date with Bry and Ee and Bamboo. Love all 3 of them oodles esp my darlingest. HA. Camp at night. Bliss.

2 more days to Happy 2 months(:

Pray for me, my last hope of passing. H1 Geog. Gahh.


WHOOTS. You know what you know what!

Im a creator.

Bamboo! You better thank me okay, Im ur creator for your new and nice hair!

The back! V shape! Nicenice.

Oh mann, the side view is really wicked. Thin and almost disappearing sideburns. Gosh. Very nice. You guys should see it real life. HA.

:) SMILES! Happy happy day today! Im looking forward to the next 30th. Last paper, and our happy day 2 months ago.

I love you bamboo kid <33>

Met up with Angel to pass her notes. HAHA:D Congrats girl. You must be happy.. *WINKS*


HOHO. Gymmed with Guifeng darl. COOL MANN. I think we lost about 1000plus calories after it. HAHA. She lost 700 plus bah. And Carian lost only 300MAX. HAHA. I cannot make it de lar. HAHA. Run halfway tired le. Then end up go do men's machines to tone my fats. HAHA. Gyming is quite cool, when it is with interesting people like darl.
Heart to heart talks and all. Its just so cool:D Wednesday!!

Met Kenny gor after that, walked under the heavy rain with a bouquet of flowers. HAHA. The flower looks rather flooded. But yeah, I think its nice, and Ive never received flowers before. So sad huh? HAHA): Went to Orchard's library, nerd awhile. Gor treated me to brownies with chocolate icecream and ice chocolate(: Thanks mann!

Cab down to Simpang Bedok to catch Mervyn's gig with his acapella group and beatboxing duet with Ryan.

Homed with Gor and stuff. Took many zilian pictures, shall put it up one day! HAHA.

Its me, myself and I now. Its a happy thing.


Hmmm, Carian finally chopped off her hair after so long. Yeah, have to, no choice, cos my hair is severely damaged. Split ends, frizziness.. You name all the bad hair nonsense. Now its short. Above shoulder length. HAHA. The hairdresser told my mum when I aint around that my hair is bad. Im not suitable to ahve long hair. OH MY GOD. Sad case, but never mind, I only had ugly hair for 2 years, at least its not 5 years then suddenly somebody tell me that my hair sucks. So not too bad. HA. Consoling myself? HEH. Yeah, I intend to keep my hair short for at least 6 months before I think of what I wanna do with it. Maybe not grow it anymore, since its prone to frizziness. HAHA:D

Shall put up some photos for viewing pleasures. TO ERM, enchance my blog a little. Getting abit stale. HA.

I think I abit affected by my dearest Guifeng darl, whenever she not happy or what she will buy stuff. HAHA. Bought a MYUK wallet and pouch from the wallet shop, and some earsticks. HAHA. Then went to buy sweets and small packets of juice for sissy. I feel so.. SATISFIED? HAHA.

Saturday is your performance le, hope you do a good job k(: Will be there to support you!

I dont really care what you feel towards me now. I just know that I love you(:

Sometimes I really feel so not assured by you. And you didnt bother to make me feel better..


Wonderful double date with Bry, Ee and Merv. It is also the last time I can see him after so many days later. Camps and all. HAIZ. He is just so busy, and Im so boliao, thats bad.

I thank God that we are so much better now in terms of rs and attitude after that nasty fight, but yeah, really thank God for his deliverances and all.. What a high price to pay for being petty. My fault. Yeah. Sorry dear):

Anw, the airport seems to be a common hangout for the 4 of us! And yeah, it shall be our usual hangout in future. Really enjoy the other 3's company((:

Ahh, wondering what he is doing at his camp now. Really miss him like siao, but I dunno how to express it out. Somehow get quite numb already. Sad until too numb lol. So funny right. Hmmm. Sometimes I just dont really know how to move on with life, but yeah, it has to go on, since time waits for no man, and yeah I have to move on, with or without him. Whats with me? A parasite? LOL.

I wanna get back the independent and jovial me again. I cant be carrying on life liddat forever. Im like casting away precious friends.. And its so wrong, like not as though he is giving up anything for me. GAH. I DUNNO LA. Im just complicated.

Sometimes I feel really unhappy, but I just dunno what to say and who to turn to. Like? Who will ever understand me? I dun wish to throw my temper again, cos it has caused our fight. But then again, sometimes I really feel so not myself.. PLUS, I dun wish to repeat stories and all all the time. Its just not good to talk bad about people.

JCT is coming. REALLY quickly, and Im not prepared yet, and nobody is helping me. And Im struggling. I lost my maths tutor and my companion this holiday. Haiz, I really miss you so much.


Yeah, I promise to try. And I will. But everything has its limits, what if I give up halfway? Im a girl myself, I cant be as strong as a guy holding on to everything, piecing up everything. I break down easily. What if I lose the feeling before you recover? Or you lose the feeling before Im half successful?


The road ahead is narrow the way is sometimes steep.
And only the commited claim the prize.
Standing at the finish with arms upstretch to reach us;
Is the one who has endured the race
And claimed the final prize.
Dare to run~
With our eyes fixed on Jesus.

Learnt many stuff. So many stuff that teachers cant teach us, and most of it are not even shown on books. Well, perhaps its planned. For me to learn.

And I learnt it the hard way. Yes, I deserved it.

LOL. Sinned too much, and I yeah, decided to go on vegetarian spree since it seems to really help according to many people. And who knows after 1 month I may hate the taste of meat. Yeah, long term of plants does help the body aye=D

THANK YOU BRY FOR INSPIRING ME. HAHA, as well as my interesting er zi Hweekee peiing me eating those oily vegetarian food. AND YES, who knows I may get fatter after a month, since its all deep fried. HAHA. Serious acne case too maybe? BWHAHAS=D

Have been getting the vomitting feel recently, esp today. LOL. Ms Lau was nice to ask if I was alright twice. LOL, wont be surprise if she suspect that Im pregnant or sth. LOL=X CHOY. Anw, there is DSA audition for Choir tomo! Hope that I can be given a chance to like, help give out forms or sth. HAHA Since Ms Lau asked those running for Ps and VPs to yeah do stuff.

Kinda think of it, Im actually very keen to be the treasurer of TJChoir. But since Treasurer means VP for TJChoir. I hope I can be given the chance to yeah, prove my worth and serve the choir. I love singing and anything to do with Choir. A love nobody can take away=D

VOTE FOR CARIAN!! LOL

The J1s are taking turns to lead now. HMM. Well done the 3 SCs! Throws out to Xinjun, Xiaochun and Kongmeng. They are all my frens la, hence I hope they both can be. ALL THE BEST! I led PT today. HAHA. SO funny. Im usually the weakest in PT when the others are running, and can you guys believe it, I actually felt so tired by the PT programme Ive planned. ME? TIRED BY MY OWN PT PLANNINGS? Carian you sure am weak mann!! Sweat like OH MY. HAHA. Hmmm. Something is weird. HAHA!!

Choir is ok la, maybe abit more hectic cos of the preparation for our Esplanade concert coming in July, and after that its the handover. Gonna miss all my beloved seniors. Really. HMM. Gah, dun talk abt emo stuff. HAHA=DD

Im hungry! LOL.

Thank you: Bry! Fiona! Xinjun! Hweekee! Xiaochun! Shiyun! Siewmin! Angelina! Sam! Kyros! Gretchen! Wanling! Without you guys, I would have been.. dead?


What do I get to be by your side?
To see you once again?

Yeah you are right, friends are more impt. But I hope what you feel for your friends, wont overtake me. Though I know it has already yeah..

Feeling so insecure. Really so insecure. But he never seem to be able to understand me better. Our happy days seemed to be numbered. I dont know why. I really love him, but does he?

Somehow quite jealous of my friend. She and her girlfriend(Ok, you know what relationship this is, but please, do not discriminate!) are really sweet together. They get to spend time 24/7 together. And thats what I really want. But sadly, for a normal BGR thing, guys want their freedom and all. They want their friends, whereas we girls tend to stupid stupid wait for the guy, always dying to see that guy. Thats what Ive learnt so far.

Somehow I would rather be in GGR, because my girlfriend and I would very much enjoy seeing each other everyday and all, and we can be much closer. Cos girls mah. And girls are able to read each other's mind. Thats the most impt thing. Every girl expect their boyfriend to know what they feel and think. BUt I dun think mine knows how to. Oh well. I still love him. And I feel that its more then what he feels for me.

I should get girlfriend=XX