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Thursday, November 24, 2005

LOLS. Feeling damn lousy now. Dont know whats the matter too. Really felt so sad after the show, or rather I was feeling damn agitated by the show. You know whats the purpose for me to be upset? COS I DUNWAN JIANYI TO LIKE YOYO! Some stoopid excuse aye.. So rubbish indeed. People that dont know me will surely think that Im some jealous freak. LADEEDA.
I admit I tend to get jealous so easily(: Even over the smallest thingmajig.
Haven been consistently doing my homework, feeling so guilty right now. HEH HEH
Anw, damn excited for 26 and 17 November!!! Come come let me tell you whats gonna happen.
26 November
Will be going for a chalet at night at Changi. Overnight with Jie(=
27 November Home with Jie to her house. Rest awhile and we will be heading to town! With her Godsis and Xiaoming(: So exciting((:
Yupps, Im suppose to like, do my chinese laa, but ended up doing craps. Shall speak about Monday.
Went to Sokfan's house to complete our GIS with Darl. Crapped awhile and Darl showed me pictures of her LIFE. HAHA. Rather guniang.. HAHA. Then we did abit of work and decided to call it day cos she had to rush for some jabbing for her Cambodia trip. Before we left, I told them some heart-to-heart stuffs abt Christ and all. I told them I really wanna go for churching stuffs and all. Then we talked about speaking in tongues and all. Really wanna witness something I told them. And we prayed. For a while we are a little pushy of the matters like whose gonna pray first and stuff. We selfvolunteered Sokfan! HAHA. Had silent prayer, then Sokfan prayed... Then it was my turn. ACTUALLY, I didnt know what to say at first. But somehow I opened my mouth and prayed. Dear Heavenly Father... After this sentence, I cried. And Sokfan had to leave to get me tissues. Cried throughout.
Indeed I have sinned alot, andI really wish to put a stop. A BIG FULLSTOP. I prayed about my flaws, and how much I wanna change. Everybody prayed for each other, it was a warm sight! I really hope that my parents will not be so objective in this kinda things. I just want to praise and worship him, is it really that wrong? I have made my choice, and I hope to pursue it...
Heavenly Father, please, help me. In Christ I Stand- Firmly and confidently, cos Im shone brightly by you with your light.

I dont understand, why is some people getting away so easily? Why do people have to suffer from their doings? Is it fair? All I want is a judgement, someone whom is powerful to put a stop in all these. Im always waiting for that day to come. Perhaps, I should learn how to let go everything. I wont be the Carian I used to am. Cos Im already not the same long ago.
God, save me. Pardon me from all my sins.
Save * too. Amen



Written by; cariann
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